Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
I feel poor in spirit. I feel so hungry for more of Him. So in need. My favorite song recently has been "O how I need you" by All Sons and Daughters.
"Lord I find you in the seeking,
Lord I find you in the doubt.
And to know You is to Love you.
And to know so little else.
I need You.
Oh how I need You.
Oh how I need You.
Oh how I need You."
I've had this on repeat for the past couple weeks.
How I desperately I am in need of God. I can't do anything without Him. And I don't want to do anything without Him. When I go to the gym I tell the Lord that I don't even want to exercise unless HE gives me the strength. I don't want to try to do anything in my own energy that I may boast.
Well, right now I am in need. I am in need for my rent. And I have been calling out to God knowing He provides for all my needs. It's so hard for me because I work so much and to not even have enough for my rent is really humbling. This is my first time living on my own and it's definitely been a huge learning and growing experience.
I had given finances as I really felt directed by the Lord, leaving me in need of rent, and I believe the Lord to provide all I need. I always cast my cares to Him. He knows my needs. He knows my heart. So in crying out to Him, all I've heard is 'if there is a need among you let it be made known.'
So if I have done anything wrong with my finances... I repent. I am so grieved if I have been disobedient and not been a good steward. My heart has been so to bless the Lord in all areas of my life, especially financial stewardship.
But I come humbly before anyone who feels led and ask if anyone would help me. Since taking two weeks off to be home for Christmas, I'm nervous to even be short for next month. But I haven't been able to pay my rent that was due January 1st. I'm so humbled and brought lower. Knowing that I am always in need. I can't do anything on my own. I am so need of God.
I just would like you to ask God if He would desire you to help me. I trust God to provide always. If He desires me to be living somewhere else, I trust Him. But its amazing how the Lord brought me here so I don't think He wants me to leave. I trust Him. And I've made my requests and my needs known to God so I feel like the Lord has lead me to do this. This is hard for me, I'll admit. God called me to do this earlier but in my pride I didn't want to ask anyone for help. But I can do nothing on my own. God is my strength and my helper and I am apart of His body.
So if you want.
https://www.paypal.com/us/webapps/mpp/send-money-online
shootingesther@gmail.com
And you know when you give to the poor you lend to the Lord. Proverbs 19:17
I'm not trying to persuade you. I trust God. I trust Him so much.
Just please pray for me. I so desire to serve the Lord and honor Him in all areas of my life. I desire to walk worthy of the calling. I desire to walk holy and pure, blameless before Him. I need Him. I need His help. I need Him. And I need you. Because we're one body. We're a family. We're here to build each other up. Let me know how I can pray for you. Let me know if I can help you.
I love you. Thank you for reading this. I am always in awe that people even read my little words. Praise God. He's way too kind to me.
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