I don't know what I'm doing: My life is a miracle. Constantly.

Let God be glorified in all I do!!!!!!!! I pray. Jesus' name, Father.

I have been really trying to get into reading the 5 psalms a day and a proverb. I really have been seeking wisdom and understanding. I really want to know the heart of God and understand Him as best as I can.

It's been cool because as I read the Psalms I notice that the psalmists will bring their complaints to God and then they say to Him, answer me and then my soul will again rejoice and be glad.... So its okay to be distressed until the answer comes. I am definitely NOT saying that you must be 'woe is me' until the answer comes, because I'm all about rejoice ALWAYS. But I KNOW you can rejoice with a hurting heart. I know you can declare God's goodness and truth with tears streaming down your face. And how good it is when the answer comes and God rescues you.

So here is a good miracle.

About 2.5 weeks ago when I signed my lease... I realized I didn't have enough money for rent. I had been given in early October a check from an acquaintance for $800 for my first month rent. A MIRACLE. But when it came time for me to sign my lease on October 23rd, I realized that I had to pay for the last week of October and then full rent November 1st. So I was about $115 dollars short. And on top of that I had no money to buy food or anything else until I got paid on November 4th.

(BTW work had been and is still going SO WELL!!! I have so much fun serving up cups of joy and blessing my customers with kind words and compliments! I love working at Starbucks. I love it so much. And I'm praying for MORE of everything God has planned for me there. I also got a second job at clothing store called the Dress Barn. I just started but I know I'm going to love it too.)

So. Me and my roommate both were trying not to stress in the pressure of paying rent... But I had been feeling pretty exhausted from not getting much sleep (still acclimating to waking up at 5am for work). It was a Tuesday we signed the lease and I had class that night and I spent most of the class crying in the lobby. I was so tired. I just wanted my own space. I just wanted my own bed. I didn't want to have to be at the mercy of others. I just wanted to sleeeeeep. And I was so tired of always needing mercy and money and miracles. But God is funny. So I ended up spending that night again at my beloved friend's who had been caring for me... in the morning when I was getting dressed for work.. I found a $100 bill in my pocket.....

The angel of the Lord who put it there (one of my beloved friends) told me that while she was praying for me God had said to her, simply, that 'miracles don't have to be hard'. She said she knew I needed more but it still helped. Amen to that.

So it was definitely a kiss from my Father. So I knew I still needed more and God would provide more. But I had NO IDEA how He was going to do it. So the next few days... I just kind of spent money like I had it. Not a lot. But I'd buy myself lunch or whatever.

That weekend a friend came to visit and on our way to a worship event we stopped at the mall to pray for people. While praying for a lady who wanted financial stability... I heard the Lord say, 'miracles don't have to be hard.' So I passed on the $100 note. I knew that I still needed more so I just believed that an act of obedience is the best thing I could do. And that night was an amazinggg night of worship. Oh man it was good.

So the next day, Saturday, my beloved friend, Jessie who had come to visit me took me to the thrift store and we were able to get a decent amount of essentials for my apartment! She was so sweet to me. And that day a group of us went into the ghetto of Harrisburg (and it is literally ghetto) to pray for people and had a wonderful time being the hands of feet of Jesus and again went to another worship event. We love to worship Jesus. At the worship event my friends who I had stayed with for two weeks showed up with a bag of food for me!!!! Soooo sweet.

And even more still, I was sharing with a friend some of the crazy testimonies I've had been since being here in Harrisburg, like the guy giving me $800 and so many other powerful testimonies. He was just blown away by the provision of God in my life and the radical life of faith I've been living. I told him I was even yet still believing God for my rent in a week. And his face gets serious and he asks me 'how much do you need? like $300?' And I stop and think. I have about $200 now... I need $400 for rent. So $300 would help me survive until I get paid. And so I told him yeah, yeah. And he just looks at me so serious and tells me that the Lord just told him, 'give her $300, give her $300, give her $300.' The presence of God fell so strongly. It is so powerful what an act of obedience can do.

God is so funny. I was totally expecting Him to provide like October 31st. Because, ya know, how God likes to make you wait because He can be slow. But look at that. God was EARLY. What??

So funny that even the next day I had checked my bank balance and realized I spent more money than I intended and realized I'd have to live on even less. But at church, I saw him and he asked if it was really $300 that I needed. I said, yeah, yeah. And he told me that the Lord had really said $350 so he was just going to give me that.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD ALWAYS PROVIDES.

God is gracious and exceeding in all things. He is so merciful. I don't deserve His kindness but He pours it out abundantly.

Even more so. He is SO MERCIFUL. let me tell you...

So, I got paid on November 4th. And. What did I do.... I went to Sephora. It is a make up store. That is of the Lord. I promise. Jesus loves make up. And I had been really needed new foundation and a couple things. And I just bought itt....... not recklessly but just not super prudent. And then after Sephora, I paid my phone bill and realized...... I was back down to having..... nothing. I actually ended up making a couple purchases and over drawing my bank account. I told the Lord I would return the make up but I didn't even know how I was going to get to the store... so just praying and praying for wisdom and mercy and direction...... My grandma is of the Lord and had already been moved by His Spirit and had sent me a card with a check in it.

GOD ALWAYS PROVIDES. And He loves make up. He loves beauty. He really does.

And so I can go on and on about how Good my Father is....... but I'll save it.

There are a lot of miracles I haven't mentioned... I could literally talk to for an hour on what God does in less than a week in my life...

My life is so full of miracles. I am so honored by God that He would choose me to live so under His grace and mercy.

I love being obedient to Him. There is no better way to live. I love Him. I love you too. Let me know how I can pray for you.

Please continue praying for me. Pray that I can have an increased anointing for the prophetic so that I may love more coworkers and be able to speak the words of God into their lives and that they would KNOW Him and give their selves to Him. Pray that I would get deeper in the Word of God and that the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation would be upon me. Pray that my apartment would be full of beautiful furniture and would be a garden full of fruit.

LOVE YOU SO MUCH.